Month: June 2003

Headache headache headache… I had 6 shots of whisky with little bit of cola, a shot of whisky with beer and a can of Barons last night. I vomited in the end of the night. What a shitty night..

Many thanks to those who were there for me last night. You know who you are. I will never forget you guys.
– 12:00PM

Congrats to those who received their degree classification! I got myself a law degree! yay!

I’ve not been busy lately even though I’ve not been updating my homepage. Last night, I played indoor soccer at MISA, Seksyen 17. It was fun even though my stamina was down the drain. And 2 days ago, I was at Techcircuit at Atmosphere with Ben, Cris and the shuffling gang. It was great too (despite the fact that the club was more than half empty).

My sleeping pattern has gone all fuckup. I dont know why. I’m dead tired whenever I goto sleep but I’ll end up waking in the in wee hours of the morning (it’s 8AM now, I slept at 4AM last night). Now, I cant sleep. It’s been going on for days Jet lag? hm, dont think so. Probably it’s due to stress (exams are over but yet stress with many other things) or probably it’s within my family genes (my mum has to take sleeping pills in order to sleep)
– 8:00AM

I’m back! I’m back in Malaysia! yay!

Trip back home
I didn’t sleep a wink throughout the night. Time goes so slow when you’re expecting something. I even tried to kill time by cooking carbonara for breakfast. The journey was a little bit stressful. Firstly, my train to Manchester Piccadilly suddenly stopped and went pretty slow couple of times and when I arrived there, I found out that the train to Manchester Airport was cancelled. Before that once I got off the train, rushed to platform 3, which is on the other end from my arrival platform. But due to the train cancellation, I was left confused but eventually found out that the replacement train is on platform 13, which is also my previous arrival platform (and the other end of the station). I had to run as fast as I could with my luggage.

My luggage weight this time? 29.5KG! 0.5KG less than the maximum amount of 30KG! Anyway, it didn’t bother me cause I check in with a friend. He got less than 25KG with him. The flight back home was just all right. I sat in the middle, between an Indian Architect from Melbourne and a Chinese guy who I never spoke a word to. I took couple of winks during the flight but it wasn’t enough. I got off the plane feeling exhausted.

I spent my first day in Malaysia with Abby. It was fun 😀 She even got to have dinner with my parents. She was so stressed out that she couldnt talk throught the dinner HEHE Oh yeah, I tried her tongue piercing. hehehehehehehehehe 😡

oooh yeah btw, Happy 22nd Birthday to Jin Han aka sft00t!!
– 10:26AM

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we’re gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won’t be coming back
No more hanging out cause we’re on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don’t have another day
Cause we’re moving on and we can’t slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won’t interfere with a tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it’s not goodbye
Keep on thinking it’s a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it’s like we’re women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us ’round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it’s not goodbye
Keep on thinking it’s a time to fly

Graduation-vitamin C

Lights! Camera! Graduation! *flashes*..*flashes* and more *flashes* everywhere. Long awaited day for everyone is round the corner. *Poof* time flies right before your eyes. From getting all excited to leaving Malaysia to Sheffield, tears- shedding in the airport, bidding farewell to all your loved ones, ( I can still vividly recall the feeling of leaving home for the first time, I swear I’ve never cried so much in my life!! ) to living with 4 British girls in a self –catered flat ( it was hell I tell you) to moving into Crookesmoor House ( it was certainly a sweet relief) to living with the loveliest people I’ve ever met ( the inevitable Watson-ers) to GRADUATION. AhHh well, we seem to past the age of high school rituals as pep rallies, homecoming dances, and senior proms. And also saying goodbye to Uni exams (let the text books stay there as it is collecting inches and inches of dust!!). Unfortunately (perhaps, fortunately??) I’m doing my BAR in London in the next academic year. It’s not the time for me to get away from the painful exams. That would be my problems next year, too early to worry about it.

They say every moment is becoming a faded memory. I totally agree with that statement. I find myself too worked up over things which are inevitable. I’m overwhelmed by the good things that will come upon me but am too fearful of the ending. Sometimes I wished they never come, so that I need not weep, as long as it lasted. I received a phone call this morning, which made my mind run a little wild. No…Not that way of course!! It has somehow made me realised that I have slipped away from the people that I loved. Being physically absent makes a hell of a difference. Absence make the heart grows fonder. BULLSHIT. It’s more like out of sight, out of mind? Before I go bonkers over my sweet little nostalgic mind of mine, I might just walk out of this fiction. Memories don’t last anyway. GoshhH…This is becoming too self-revealing. I feel naked. At least, not literally.

Possibly due to the sentimental effects of graduation and leaving this city and also am too- damn- free, I’ve been resorting to running. Yes..!! Run, Baby, RuNNnNn !!

– 12.42AM

I thought of this while I was stoned last night. It’s an undeniable fact that to live is to suffer as everyday we are subjected to pressure, heartaches, tiredness and so on. Despite all those, people kept on advising me not to take stimulants such as drugs and alcohol as it would fuck up my body. But wait, those stimulants made me feel much calmer, happier and the troubles that worry me no longer affects me. Hence, what’s the problem of taking stimulants? Everybody wants to be happy, why not take stimulants? It would make us feel much better (obviously there are after effects for taking excessive stimulants but obviously, there are argument against my point) and make our troubles go away. Obviously, excessive stimulants fuck up your body. However, it’s either you go through a torturous normal day with all the stress, pressures, heartaches and bad memories (without fucking up your body of course) or a day without trouble on your mind (with the expense of fucking up your body). What say you?

Enough of those craps, btw Happy Father’s Day Dad (Hope he’s not reading this)!

Ah yes, 16 Watson Road road trip to Lake District tomorrow! See you guys in 2 days!

p/s love, stop smoking and drink less! hehe
– 6:33PM

~Sex & drugs & rock and rave,
let?s get smashed and misbehave.
On speed and weed and little e’s,
let?s get fucked and talk to trees.
Life?s a trip and then you’ll die,
so fuck em all and let’s get high?~
– Poh Oon 😉 so come on, let?s go let?s go!!

I AM DONE! I AM FINALLY DONE!!! Naturally a hoarder, I usually keep all my lecture notes, articles, books and stuff for purely sentimental reasons but this time, ah fuck it, THIS BUNCH OF CRAP IS GOING INTO THE BLUE BIN OUTSIDE!!!! Thinking about it, maybe.. maybe I WILL BURN IT! yES YEs and watch the licking flames dissolve the paper away and ashes float around me while I run around it laughing out loud…. until I render myself unconscious on the ground, patting my stomach… muahHhhahAHhhahHAhahaa….

How ironic it is, I have no reason to sleep early or to wake up early coz I have nothing to do but my body decides to revolt and suddenly decides to takes me to dreamland by 10pm and I will be wide awake by 6am every morning. Curses! But then again, waking up these days is like waking up suddenly in the morning thinking, shit, you are late for class or something and then you realise, hey, it?s a Saturday morning? 😀

Tomorrow we are going on our Watson 16 roadtrip to Lake District!!! Well, at least I hope we are going? we haven?t rented our second car yet and we haven?t even planned our journey. But no worries, I guess – last minute stuff, we are good at these kinda shit. There will be 10 of us, 2 cars, 2 rooms ? chaos~~~ It will also be Alex?s birthday on the 17th, don?t tell him but we are gonna toss him into the lake. 😀 (can already imagine the vulgarities he would be spewing at us ? ?chaaauuuuuu cheeeeeeeeee bwaaaaaiiiiiiiiii?.!?) This may be one of the last few times we are gonna be as one group before we all leave for our prospective plans and holidays? *cries* Love you guys?

There are these 2 guys in Melbourne and Perth who I really wanna be there for right now. I wish I could teleport myself over there with just a snap of my fingers and talk to you guys face to face. Chatting online or on the phone is soOoo not enough. Tucks ? good luck for your exams, be tough for me, ok? I will be there soon. Oon ? You deserve so much better than that. Cool down first, no use getting so worked up about the insignificant. Much love out to you two? Wait till the 3 of us are together again, like how Tucks puts it, It would be awesome, wicked and insane! We’ll rock so hard, the Southern Hemisphere will experience a massive earthquake! 😀 Right on?. *HuGs**

– 1.45PM

Last year, I planned to go backpacking around Europe. Earlier this year, I had to limit the countries to visit after realising the total cost for it (it�s about 400 pounds a country) and couple of weeks ago I was planning to head to Greece. But now, I�m not going to Greece anymore due to lack of funds! I guess I�ll just stay in Sheffield until Abby comes.

Check out miss aura’s Journal. I got it from wyinn. Lovely photos 😀

I like this BMW Z4 advert! No fancy slogans needed, just “!!!!!!!!!!!!” haha. Sorry about the quality. I scanned it from this month’s National Geographic Special 😀
– 11:20PM

Ah yes, life is so full of surprises. I just had another shocking revelation. On my 21st birthday, I found out that I have a half sister. Couple of months ago, I found out that Starwing, an old friend of mine is my first cousin. And today, I found out that I have another half sister. She’s my sister’s (the one who I found out on my 21st birthday) sister. Her name is Jenny and she’s already married with kids. I didn’t know we were siblings until today even though her husband used to baby-sit me when I was a kid while my family were at her place. He taught me how to ride a motorcycle but after he had kids of his own, he didn’t bother babysitting me anymore. I got to know this from my sister’s email that reveals the past that was shielded from me for the past 22 years. It was absolutely shocking but it surely satisfies my curiosity that has been going on and on for years. Anyway, I’m fine and I’m not mentally affected by it. But ahhh… what a complicated family!
– 9:48PM