ramble on, baby…

Just 2 more days to the deadline of my Corporate Insolvency assignment and my Criminal Justice and Penal Policy exams – do I give a damn? Nope.. Maybe its something that happens after an accident, I really think I have better things in life to do than worry about studying for exams. When I was lying down in the hospital bed on the 3rd day (the worst day) with all the needles stuck in me, all I wanted to do was to live properly again – now that I am okay, I don’t need this sort of stress in my life now, it is superficial stress and I am so beyond that. For the first time in my life, I don’t feel the least bit stress about my exams. I wonder if that’s a good thing…?

This would be last batch of exams I would have before I can look at my study-life straight in the eye and say, now you can fuck off. I will be starting work back home soon, then I wanna get married, have 7 kids (and therefore naming them all after my Watson 16 housemates – so let’s hope I have 5 sons and 2 daughters *cross fingers*), have a life full of love, die a happy great-great-grandmother and be a guardian angel to all my loved ones. Sounds like a plan?. 😉

Talking about dying and guardian angels, Leong suggested I write something about a friend of mine, X who has the ability to see ?things?. Of course, it is really up to you guys to believe it or not but it makes up for something interesting to read and talk about.

At home
She has had many terrifying experience of being ?held down? by ?something? while she slept. The Chinese believed it to be a naughty spirit pressing you down, making it impossible for you to move but is aware of everything else happening around you. Apparently, it is quite common. Many times X would feel ?it? clutch her and she would try with all her might to scream for help to no avail.

Once, in one of the many times she got ?pressed down?, she saw fleeting images of white things around a row of white houses. And sometimes, she would hear mutterings in a language she could not comprehend and occasionally, even deep breathing by the side of her ear. Now she has learnt to go with the flow ? stay calm, silently say a prayer and wait for it to go away.

Midvalley Megamall
It was not the first time X felt like fainting and vomiting while she was walking around the huge shopping complex, feeling worse as the floors got higher. By the time she was at the UGC and McD floor, she was on the verge of fainting, overcome with nausea and feeling as if the place was ?not nice? in a negative vibe kinda way. The last time she was there, it was to watch LOTR: The Two Towers, she didn?t get to watch the ending as she had succumbed to the depressing vibe that clouded her mind and senses and decided to leave that place immediately with her dad.

At the carpark, her dad was driving out when X suddenly started screaming at her dad to slowdown. Her dad was like wth? Why? She then said that she saw a man standing right in the middle of the carpark and her dad was going to bang him down. Her dad was positive that he saw no man in front of the car while X was just as sure that she saw a man just standing there. Her reaction to the ?man? in front of the car was extremely startling to say the least, prompting her dad to believe that she probably did see ?something?, which he couldn?t.

Sungai Buloh
We were with some friends at a random BKT shop when X went pale and started to cry. She asked me if I could see an old lady standing right behind her. There was nothing and no one behind X at all. She said that this old lady was dressed in an old purple cheong-foo and was just standing there rigidly, head cocked to one side, staring at X. It took us a while to calm her down. While the rest of us couldn?t see anything, we already felt uneasy and left soon after we finished our lunch.

Hong Kong
All was well when we were all holidaying in HK, until we went to the underground. Immediately, X turned pallid and she was about to faint. By then, we could tell that she was getting some negative vibes from the area and tried to get her out of the place as soon as we could. While walking back to the hotel, she began to saw ?them? everywhere in streets – standing rigidly or sleeping at the side of the pavement. When we asked her how did she know ?they? were what they were, she say that it was obvious coz it was winter time in HK then, everybody was wrapped up to their teeth in thick coats, scarves and gloves. ?They? were dressed in thin, summer clothing oblivious to the cold harsh wind blowing around them. And furthermore, people walk past ?them? as if they weren?t there ? which to the layman?s eye, technically weren?t.

SS2
There is this certain junction in SS2 (the traffic-lights whereby we turn right to go to Sri Siam) and there?s a house facing those traffic lights. Whenever we pass that place, X had always seen the same man sitting in front of the house, on top of the water-meter thingy. She says that the man is there without fail, night or day; he would be just sitting there unflinchingly. And naturally, the rest of us don?t see that man. So the next time, you guys pass that junction, see if you can see a man sitting outside the house facing the traffic-lights?.

Besides these places, X also had many sightings in places like Subang Jaya (near the highway, turning into Subang Parade on the way to Taylor?s), Damansara Heights (the housing estate, not sure where exactly) and Damansara Perdana among others.

She doesn?t only see people but also animals. Many a time, while her dad was driving, she would yell out that her dad was going to run over a dog or cat when everybody else in the car saw nothing. X could see the dog or cat sitting or standing still in the middle of the road while cars drove right through them. And sometimes, she would see them sitting quietly beside the carcass of themselves that got run down a few moments ago.

A gift or a curse? X does not understand why she sees them or if they really are a figment of her imagination. Oh well, I guess we will never know? but do we really need to anyway? 😀

And yes, below you would see some silly webcam shots of my darling sister Kim and I? to those who really care ? look!! I almost look normal again!!! The bandanna and cap had to be worn to cover some bruises on my head, which has not fully heal yet. Ahhh.. life is goooood?. *WARM HUGS TO ALL*




2.55AM

its too goddamn early to do anything sane…

My IE closed on me again halfway through – yup, live and learn, that’s what we do… *smacks forehead* Grouch alert!!! Slept early and here I am, awake by 6am and those who agree with me that its wayyyy too early for any studying to be done, put your hands up. Ok I don’t really care how many hands I see or doN’t see, I am not gonna start on the books anytime soon this morning. Don’t make me! 😛

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Wei Chen, Ron and Way Meng!!! Hugs and kisses going out to all three of you big boys… be good!!! 😉

And in the spirit of putting up photos, as it seems to be the fad of the mo in this site (and also coz Frank put up all those pics I meant to hide from public view, all is lost – so wuddahell), here are some Amsterdam photos of me and my girl-buddies who went – Siew Lee, Jia Hui and I…

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atlousypancakeplace
Ok, this picture was taken at this lousy pancake place which had some waitresses who acted as if they had something stucked up their ass all day – bad service in and out. BITCH! We were tempted to go back the next day to order a bunch of pancakes and run away but it wouldn’t have been fun enough. (Or mature enough for that matter, but of course, that doesn’t matter when we are on holiday with friends. :D)

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spacecake
And I guess many of you guys can guess what we are holding – a space cake! Or a really tiny space cupcake, really… Very much like an ordinary chocolate chip muffin with a little bit of aftertaste of the greens. Thrilled as we were, it had no effect whatsoever. Therefore we happily proceeded to ordering…. (look below)

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spacetea
Space tea!!! And err.. there wAs space chocolate in that empty cup. Siew Lee didn’t even give the camera a chance!!! 😀 And yet again, no effect whatsoever… but then again, there might be – check out the glassy-eyed chick on my left. wAHhahAHa! 😉

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stillnotworking
Loookieee here! This could be our favourite highlight of the trip. We bought those sunnies together for a really cheap price at this random shop and had such a kick taking pictures as though we were celebrities. The biggest kick had to be complimenting each other about it all day-la. I pity Kin Han who had to follow us around all day and listen to it. 😀

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controlling
And this would be the picture taken 2 seconds after the picture above was taken. Posing to take all these serious-looking pics was soooo goddamn tiring coz 3 of us laugh wayyy too much to be healthy for us. And yeah, that would be me at the bottom there… hello 😀

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thegirls
Here we are at one of the many cafes around Amsterdam… From left to right: Dee, Jia Hui and Siew Lee. Mind you, this picture was taken before we had ANY puff, munch or anything of whatsoever so the tired looks were pretty much drugfree. 😉 The trip couldn’t have been as fun as it was without both you girls, much love to you two! We gotta do this again, k… but this time, we don’t bring the guys… muAHhaha.. 😀

(and many thanks to wc for resizing the pics for me! moochas!!)

Lalalalalalalaa… I probably exhausted my quota for a post (hope Leong doesn’t mind) but still don’t feel like studying. And don’t make me!

9.55AM

Everybody here is sleeping tight…

Like Wee Kiat, I was also happily typing a post yesterday when my IE decided to close on me. BAHHH! So I shall cut short the drama of my sister and I fighting yesterday – she pissed me off I slapped her she whacked my head so I whalloped her an hour later many tears and hugs all is good now. 😛

Moving on, if you guys remember about Vivien, our resident ghost in Watson 16 – well, she has made an appearance! *insert appropriate Twilight Zone tune again* It was another typical night in the house, the guys were at the PS2 and Frank was doing some tarot card reading in the livingroom. Then someone in the room (whose name I don’t wanna reveal) suddenly became very pale, very cold and she started to cry… I noticed, so I pulled her out of the room and asked what the hell was wrong? Then she told me that she saw a figure of a young child of about 8-9 years old with shoulder-length dark hair and a fringe, wearing a flower-printed dress to her knees and socks but she couldn’t see if there were feet. The figure was standing by the entrance to the livingroom and started off rather blur but slowly got clearer bit by bit. She had no face.

(I was silently screaming inside when she was telling me all this)

We went back to the livingroom but she couldn’t see the figure anymore. She didn’t know about our Vivien story either, so she couldn’t have been making it up to entertain us. Something playing with her eyes or was there really an apparition in the livingroom that night?

OK, enough about such scary shit… Leong-la! Told me to post about this, typing about it now is only making myself scared. need to get my mind off it need to get my mind off it need to get my mind off it

Ahh yesss, Fred bought durians for us today. WHat is this I hear?? DuriaNs?? IN UK?!? 13 POUNDS EACH!?!??!?! Ok, so I thought it was kinda cool, to be eating the all-heaty durians in a cold country like UK. Apparently the durians were from somewhere in UK. I didn’t know they had any durian plantations, or a tree even, all the way here. Here’s a photo taken today with (from L-R) Alex, Fred, Mindy, Chuo Ming and the fruit. It almost looks like home!!

And to all who know Wei Chen, his 22nd birthday is this coming Monday!!! He claims that no one knows, that he will be celebrating it alone, blah blah blahhh… I bet he would be too busy on that day to even bother chatting with me, so suCk it in boy 😉 you are gonna have a great time.

Before I forget, to all who know my sister – guess what!!! She got herself her first boyfriend!!! WOO HOO!!! I can’t tell who it is yet, but I am really itching to…. ah well, I will get my way soon enough. Wish you two the very, very best. 😀 *HUGS*

2.50AM

home glorious home!!!

I’M HOOOOOOME!!!!!!!!!!!

Millions and millions and millions of thank you’s to all who wished me well, visited me, sent me gifts, cared for me and also had me in their thoughts and prayers all this week! All is fine besides having the world map sketched across my face!! 😀 Not toooo bugged by that, just relieved at how things turned out. May update all you guys on what happened, if Leong doesn’t do it first.

Mannn… I am one happy girl… 🙂 Take care everyone.

10.05PM

Advertising the Man of the Mo…

Here’s another dose of whatchemacallit naughty, naughty stuff which a good friend wrote recently –

The candles glowing, my body’s on fire,
Your presence here with me, fuelling my desire.
Cupped your face in my hands, gazed into your eyes,
The touch of our lips, hunger growing inside…
My fingers begin tracing a path down your chest,
feeling your heart pounding.

No layers between us, just skin upon skin,
Such a wonderful sensation… but where to begin?
My temperature rising, the need to devour you as I lower my head,
To this inviting place.. a gasp, a sigh..
pleasure glowing from your face.

I feel your warmth spreading down through your thighs..
the sudden craving to be inside.
Gently now… emotions soaring wanting it to last taking it slow.
I cannot stop it now I know.
Gradually building, getting ready to explode. . . . . . . .

The afterglow of love, bodies entwined… holding you close to my heart.
How I wish you were mine.

~*~

hehe, sizzling!

On other matters, my sister is coming on Tuesday!!!! Can’t wait can’t wait can’t wait! Have to wake up (should I even bother sleeping?) at a godawful hour and leave the house by 4am to reach Manchester Airport in time to pick her up. Ahhhh some major sisterly bonding sessions coming up… Can’t wait can’t wait can’t wait!

And before I end this post, I gotta say this:
WONG WEI CHEN IS THE GREATEST GUY IN THE WHOLE WIIIDE WORLD!!!! (eh, thanks-ar Wei Chen for the 50 bucks!)

😉

3.25AM

evil, evil thoughts, I tell you…

Down boy, DOWN! Here’s an excerpt from an online conversation with a guyfriend earlier today –

him: eh I heard your mum is hot
me: !?
him: =D
me: if your next line is ‘can intro-ar?’, I SWEAR I will kill you
him: =D
me: I SWEAR
him: shit..

And that wasn’t the first time I got that from my guyfriends who are just a liiiiiitttle bit tooo horny-lar y’know… WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE!? ITS MY MOM!!!!… Geeezzz….

4.50PM

hooodelaheee!

Watson 16 now has 2 more added to da family! Vivien (or Terry or Sekoi) the ghost and Josephine the rat! One biiiig happy family!!

Let me tell you guys how the whole ghost thing came about… Frank has this deck of Tarot Cards and everybody had a fine time asking questions while Frank interpreted the cards. And damn, was he good. Damn accurate sometimes, ok!!! Frank was damn stressed though with all the non-stop questions which he kept fending off by saying he was tired and all…:D Then someone asked if our house was haunted and the answer was telling us ‘to stop seeking answers’. Scary shits… But IF it was haunted, it would be a tomboy-ish girl or a feminine boy. I dunno what happened along the way but our Watson 16 ghost became female and got her name(s)!

SO that’s what happened to all my black undies. 😀

Anyway, nonsense aside, Jia Hui, Daryl, Wee Kiat and I queued up for the Real Madrid v Manchester United game the other day… we were trying our luck on those tickets which nobody collected. After finally deciding that we didn’t mind queueing up the whole day for it, we reached there to see a line of about 40 people and some of them had camped the night to be in front of the line!!! But with good company, 4 hours wait really didn’t seem so bad but things started getting edgy when the line in front of us somehow got ‘thicker’ with people (damn you!!! people who jump queues will BURN!!!). The game had started and the cheers from inside the stadium seemed to float out towards us outside… crossing our fingers while the Japs in front cheered as they got their tickets (I never wanted something so badly in my life!!!) but unfortunately, about less than 10 more people to the front – there were no more tickets. Shite…. and it was a damn good game too. 🙁 Ahhh never mind… I am not some hardcore football fan anyway. And it was a cold night anyway. And Raul wasn’t playing anyway. I don’t even like football.

(Definitely a typical sour grapes scenario here but muaHAHha at least I am satisfied with my justifications :P)

3.35AM

Smokin that stuff will make you hurt yourself, boy!

Harlow everybardy! Being away has been great but hell, I started to miss everybody in Watson 16 the moment I got into the taxi to the train station – and we haven’t even left Sheffield!! But we all had a wickedly good time and errr.. I am swearing off all shrooms – even them button ones now. I SWEAR. And heh.. we didn’t quite make it to the tulips and windmills. Anyway, I will leave Frank to tell you guys about Amsterdam, if he chooses to do so. 😉

The day we came back from Amsterdam, was also the day of our annual Dinner and Dance. I didn’t think any of us would survive the nite, but surprisingly, we all made it and danced all nite too – embarrassingly enough, to songs like the Macarena, Ketchup Song, Cheeky Girls and YMCA among others. Cheesy cheesy cheesy! But all good fun!!! 😀 Beautiful people everywhere, countless camera flashes and the abundance of fake smiles. The pretentiousness of some of these kinda nights sometimes left me going home feeling all empty. Yet, my table had the company that meant the most to me, and that makes it all worth it in the end. Mindy also gave a fabulous performance with the band and her words to the Watson 16 housemates before she started singing really left me, if not all of us, soooOooo touched. aRGhh.. I am getting sentimental about leaving this godforsaken country soon.. 🙁

And ahh yes, among other petty matters – after taking a picture hugging a certain friend at the DnD, apparently his girl has banned him from communicating with me ever again. And she is pretty pissed at me – so pissed that she got her fren to tell my fren to tell me that she was pissed with me. Riiiiigghhhtt. Grow up, girl… what is feeding your insecurities? The fact that you are playing the same goddamn game? Ahhh, I couldn’t give two rats ass anymore.. hope you two have a very nice life together and make many babies. That has to be one dysfunctional relationship if I have ever known of any.

Next time, I will stick to taking hugging pictures with SINGLE guys… no wait, I think I will just stick to hugging girls and see if any of them come back to me saying that their guys refuse to let them talk to me anymore. Yeap. That’s one helluva plan…

3.40AM

Misteri panties aku yang berwarna hitam…

Damnit, my one last black undie has disappeared along with the rest. Oiii whoever you are, give me back-ar!!! The little black undie is just as important as the little black dress!! Thieves, I tell you, THIEVES!!

Anyway, Siew Lee, Fred, Frank, Hun Chong, Jia Hui, Kin Han and I are going to Amsterdam tomorrow!!! Well, not technically, coz we are flying off at 6am, Saturday morning but we are taking the train to London tomorrow evening. wOoo HooOoo… Amsterdam… the city with the weed, mushrooms, porn, weed, porn, weed, porn, weed – but I swear, I am only going there for the Tulips and Windmills. Really-wan. 😀 (muaHAHhahHA)

Hope all goes well, I think a few of us in the group need time away from home to figure things out, while some need to spend some time together to see what good things you already have, but you are momentarily tempted away for now… You know who you are.

Have you ever been in a position where you know you really shouldn’t be… but you really can’t help yourself sometimes? You figured you had the will, but temptation takes over and you go home feeling like shit. Shit. You are screaming inside – Be sensible!!! You can hear yourself loud and clear but after a while, you tend to get use to playing Ignorance on your own. Then you talk to your friends about it and they tell you what you don’t want to hear – knowing fully well that they are perfectly right in every possible sense. Here’s where you start to play Denial… but this time, some friends will play along with you. By then, you would know who your real friends are. The true ones wouldn’t play that game with you.

I need a good knock on the head and maybe I would be able to open my eyes… coz maybe some things are just not meant to be.

Yeap.. Amsterdam would be a good time to get away from it all… see you guys when we get back on Tuesday!! And pray, we all come back in one piece – not literally, of course. 😀 Till then, take care!

4.50AM