I am sooo tired…

I don’t know how to even begin to explain (and I probably choose not to) how hard the last few days have been for me and many of us. Truth, lies, misunderstanding, too many people getting involved and way too much unnecessary hurt inflicted on one another. Every ounce of strength that I ever had in me has been taken away from me and I dunno how long I can take this anymore…

Everything will be alrite” seems to be my mantra for the past few weeks. Once something gets alrite, something new pops up unexpectedly to agonize about. If someone up there is listening to me, please please please I never wanted a break as badly as I want one now.

I don?t think I am the only one who notices that all my posts lately seem to have something paranormal in them ;)? so not to break the trend, here is something I have been meaning to tell you guys about but I kept forgetting. The third day of my hospital stay, when the nurses moved me to another ward to be closer to my doctors, beside me, was a lady – Sasha, who was very kind. She would nag me to drink more water, to eat and always checked on me. When I woke up the next morning, she came over to me and told me not to worry coz I was going to be okay. I looked at her questioningly and she told me that she saw angels all around my bed while I slept that night, so I was going to be alrite? I dunno if it was really true, but it felt like the most beautiful thing to hear in the morning? 😀

Like Leong’s post says… we are pretty much busy with exams (which I am not tooo bothered about-la) so wish us lotsa LUCK LUCK LUCK!!! 😀 Good Luck to everyone else taking exams these few weeks too! See you guys again soon after… *muAks** *MUaks*


vcd lucah

Got this from Berita Harian website. To those who cant read Malay, hmm..too bad 😀

saya tak setuju bahawa tidak membeli vcd lucah itu adalah jalan terbaik untuk mengelak kebanjiran VCD lucah. mengapa saya tak setuju ialah sebab masalahnya bukan dari pengguna tapi syarikat-syarikat yang tak bertanggungjawab dan ingin cepat kaya. CADANGAN pertama saya ialah mengapa tidak pihak yang berwajib memburu syarikat syarikat tersebut menghalang mereka dari menjual VCD tersebut.
CADANGAN KE 2,sekiranya memburu syarikat syarikat tidak berjaya maka biarkan mereka menjual tetapi mengapa tidak menguatkuasakan atau beri peraturan seperti contoh jika seseorang ingin membeli VCD lucah maka perlu ditunjukkan surat nikah/kahwin barulah dibenarkan membeli..

bagi saya tak salah syarikat tersebut menjualnya asalkan pelanggan menggunakannya untuk keharmonian rumah tangga. ada kebaikan vcd lucah ditonton oleh suami dan isteri bagi mewujudkan dan menambahkan kemesraan. ia amat penting juga kepada suami isteri untuk mempelajari teknik-teknik bercinta. cuma apa yang menjijikkan ialah di mana ada vcd yang dijual tu merupakan adegan yang bercanggah dari kehidupan atau tabii sebenar manusia atau di luar batasan.
sebab itu saya mencadangkan bahawa penjualan vcd lucah hanya dibenarkan untuk pelanggan yang menunjukan surat nikah sahaja dan pihak berwajib mengeluarkan peraturan hanya vcd lucah yang bermoral sahaja dibenarkan menjual, maksud saya vcd yang sesuai ditonton oleh suami isteri.
sekarang ini kerajaan atau pihak yang berwajib habis-habisan membenteras penjualan VCD lucah..bagi saya rancangan itu baik tetapi tetapi adakah ianya akan berjaya sepenuhnya?

this is between us, got it?

Ok I can’t bear to leave what I posted earlier for long… and I am sorry if any of you guys managed to read it before I took it down.

And one thing I have got to mention, throughout all the hard times I have faced, a bunch of great friends have been there listening to me grumble aimlessly the hours away and make me laugh once again. All the love in the world right out to you guys – ryan ryan ryan, wee kiat (you west, me north!), frederick, poh oon, tucks, chuo ming, keong, siew lee, wei chen dear and leeeoooonnngg! What will I do without you guys…


ramble on, baby…

Just 2 more days to the deadline of my Corporate Insolvency assignment and my Criminal Justice and Penal Policy exams – do I give a damn? Nope.. Maybe its something that happens after an accident, I really think I have better things in life to do than worry about studying for exams. When I was lying down in the hospital bed on the 3rd day (the worst day) with all the needles stuck in me, all I wanted to do was to live properly again – now that I am okay, I don’t need this sort of stress in my life now, it is superficial stress and I am so beyond that. For the first time in my life, I don’t feel the least bit stress about my exams. I wonder if that’s a good thing…?

This would be last batch of exams I would have before I can look at my study-life straight in the eye and say, now you can fuck off. I will be starting work back home soon, then I wanna get married, have 7 kids (and therefore naming them all after my Watson 16 housemates – so let’s hope I have 5 sons and 2 daughters *cross fingers*), have a life full of love, die a happy great-great-grandmother and be a guardian angel to all my loved ones. Sounds like a plan?. 😉

Talking about dying and guardian angels, Leong suggested I write something about a friend of mine, X who has the ability to see ?things?. Of course, it is really up to you guys to believe it or not but it makes up for something interesting to read and talk about.

At home
She has had many terrifying experience of being ?held down? by ?something? while she slept. The Chinese believed it to be a naughty spirit pressing you down, making it impossible for you to move but is aware of everything else happening around you. Apparently, it is quite common. Many times X would feel ?it? clutch her and she would try with all her might to scream for help to no avail.

Once, in one of the many times she got ?pressed down?, she saw fleeting images of white things around a row of white houses. And sometimes, she would hear mutterings in a language she could not comprehend and occasionally, even deep breathing by the side of her ear. Now she has learnt to go with the flow ? stay calm, silently say a prayer and wait for it to go away.

Midvalley Megamall
It was not the first time X felt like fainting and vomiting while she was walking around the huge shopping complex, feeling worse as the floors got higher. By the time she was at the UGC and McD floor, she was on the verge of fainting, overcome with nausea and feeling as if the place was ?not nice? in a negative vibe kinda way. The last time she was there, it was to watch LOTR: The Two Towers, she didn?t get to watch the ending as she had succumbed to the depressing vibe that clouded her mind and senses and decided to leave that place immediately with her dad.

At the carpark, her dad was driving out when X suddenly started screaming at her dad to slowdown. Her dad was like wth? Why? She then said that she saw a man standing right in the middle of the carpark and her dad was going to bang him down. Her dad was positive that he saw no man in front of the car while X was just as sure that she saw a man just standing there. Her reaction to the ?man? in front of the car was extremely startling to say the least, prompting her dad to believe that she probably did see ?something?, which he couldn?t.

Sungai Buloh
We were with some friends at a random BKT shop when X went pale and started to cry. She asked me if I could see an old lady standing right behind her. There was nothing and no one behind X at all. She said that this old lady was dressed in an old purple cheong-foo and was just standing there rigidly, head cocked to one side, staring at X. It took us a while to calm her down. While the rest of us couldn?t see anything, we already felt uneasy and left soon after we finished our lunch.

Hong Kong
All was well when we were all holidaying in HK, until we went to the underground. Immediately, X turned pallid and she was about to faint. By then, we could tell that she was getting some negative vibes from the area and tried to get her out of the place as soon as we could. While walking back to the hotel, she began to saw ?them? everywhere in streets – standing rigidly or sleeping at the side of the pavement. When we asked her how did she know ?they? were what they were, she say that it was obvious coz it was winter time in HK then, everybody was wrapped up to their teeth in thick coats, scarves and gloves. ?They? were dressed in thin, summer clothing oblivious to the cold harsh wind blowing around them. And furthermore, people walk past ?them? as if they weren?t there ? which to the layman?s eye, technically weren?t.

There is this certain junction in SS2 (the traffic-lights whereby we turn right to go to Sri Siam) and there?s a house facing those traffic lights. Whenever we pass that place, X had always seen the same man sitting in front of the house, on top of the water-meter thingy. She says that the man is there without fail, night or day; he would be just sitting there unflinchingly. And naturally, the rest of us don?t see that man. So the next time, you guys pass that junction, see if you can see a man sitting outside the house facing the traffic-lights?.

Besides these places, X also had many sightings in places like Subang Jaya (near the highway, turning into Subang Parade on the way to Taylor?s), Damansara Heights (the housing estate, not sure where exactly) and Damansara Perdana among others.

She doesn?t only see people but also animals. Many a time, while her dad was driving, she would yell out that her dad was going to run over a dog or cat when everybody else in the car saw nothing. X could see the dog or cat sitting or standing still in the middle of the road while cars drove right through them. And sometimes, she would see them sitting quietly beside the carcass of themselves that got run down a few moments ago.

A gift or a curse? X does not understand why she sees them or if they really are a figment of her imagination. Oh well, I guess we will never know? but do we really need to anyway? 😀

And yes, below you would see some silly webcam shots of my darling sister Kim and I? to those who really care ? look!! I almost look normal again!!! The bandanna and cap had to be worn to cover some bruises on my head, which has not fully heal yet. Ahhh.. life is goooood?. *WARM HUGS TO ALL*


final exams starts next week

Final examination starts next week. Family Law on 2nd June, Employment Law on 3rd June and Japanese for Non-specialist 2 on 5th June. I am so gonna die.

Ok, a small clue about the stalker. Note, the email below, taken from the compilation of the emails I posted further below:

From: Nicholas
To: cross_x_20@hotmail.com
Date: Sun, 28 Apr 2002 06:42:34 -0700 (PDT)
Whoever you are, please know that these are people’s
emotions that you’re playing with. Who made you judge
to all of this?
Just stop what you’re doing cos it’s bringing hurt to
these people. It’s not for you to decide what Melody
does or doesn’t deserve. That is a job for fate. So
man, I’m asking nicely first , please stop this issue
that you’re pursuing. If you really think she doesn’t
deserve what she has then just let fate decide. If
she’s to lose it all then she will. Think about it, be
a better person.

He wrote to lars ulrich, who is also, himself.

its too goddamn early to do anything sane…

My IE closed on me again halfway through – yup, live and learn, that’s what we do… *smacks forehead* Grouch alert!!! Slept early and here I am, awake by 6am and those who agree with me that its wayyyy too early for any studying to be done, put your hands up. Ok I don’t really care how many hands I see or doN’t see, I am not gonna start on the books anytime soon this morning. Don’t make me! 😛

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Wei Chen, Ron and Way Meng!!! Hugs and kisses going out to all three of you big boys… be good!!! 😉

And in the spirit of putting up photos, as it seems to be the fad of the mo in this site (and also coz Frank put up all those pics I meant to hide from public view, all is lost – so wuddahell), here are some Amsterdam photos of me and my girl-buddies who went – Siew Lee, Jia Hui and I…

atlousypancakeplace (55k image)
Ok, this picture was taken at this lousy pancake place which had some waitresses who acted as if they had something stucked up their ass all day – bad service in and out. BITCH! We were tempted to go back the next day to order a bunch of pancakes and run away but it wouldn’t have been fun enough. (Or mature enough for that matter, but of course, that doesn’t matter when we are on holiday with friends. :D)

spacecake (44k image)
And I guess many of you guys can guess what we are holding – a space cake! Or a really tiny space cupcake, really… Very much like an ordinary chocolate chip muffin with a little bit of aftertaste of the greens. Thrilled as we were, it had no effect whatsoever. Therefore we happily proceeded to ordering…. (look below)

spacetea (50k image)
Space tea!!! And err.. there wAs space chocolate in that empty cup. Siew Lee didn’t even give the camera a chance!!! 😀 And yet again, no effect whatsoever… but then again, there might be – check out the glassy-eyed chick on my left. wAHhahAHa! 😉

stillnotworking (36k image)
Loookieee here! This could be our favourite highlight of the trip. We bought those sunnies together for a really cheap price at this random shop and had such a kick taking pictures as though we were celebrities. The biggest kick had to be complimenting each other about it all day-la. I pity Kin Han who had to follow us around all day and listen to it. 😀

controlling (36k image)
And this would be the picture taken 2 seconds after the picture above was taken. Posing to take all these serious-looking pics was soooo goddamn tiring coz 3 of us laugh wayyy too much to be healthy for us. And yeah, that would be me at the bottom there… hello 😀

thegirls (49k image)
Here we are at one of the many cafes around Amsterdam… From left to right: Dee, Jia Hui and Siew Lee. Mind you, this picture was taken before we had ANY puff, munch or anything of whatsoever so the tired looks were pretty much drugfree. 😉 The trip couldn’t have been as fun as it was without both you girls, much love to you two! We gotta do this again, k… but this time, we don’t bring the guys… muAHhaha.. 😀

(and many thanks to wc for resizing the pics for me! moochas!!)

Lalalalalalalaa… I probably exhausted my quota for a post (hope Leong doesn’t mind) but still don’t feel like studying. And don’t make me!